What is Next

As I was praying over Lily before bed I found myself in a heated conversation with GOD. Not sure what it accomplished, but I feel as though I had just cause. My wife almost died several years ago, our daughter was found to have lead poisoning One day before her 1st birthday, our baby(Jordan) died while still in the womb earlier this year and I lost my job in August and have found nothing since then. I've had 2 interviews that I was positive I was going to get hired. Just recently Lily has been diagnosed with yet another health issue, Stalf infection,which my mom died from back in 1997, so yeah I'm not excited about this. Naturally after going through this, one is left with a lot of questions, and I started asking them. At this point being unemployed the only thing keeping us in this area is our church (Downtown@8:08), so if there was something God has in mind now is the time if he wants to send us somewhere. I'm not sure where I'm going or what I'm doing but I do know that I'm going to have to trust GOD because he is in control.

Football agreement

Just one hour til kickoff, my wife says to me "if your going to be watching football we need to lay down some rules." Now this concerned me because its football, right. Much to my surprise there was only one rule. For every hour of football I watch, I have to read my Bible. Which is fine, I need to read it, my relationship with Christ is important to me. Half way through the 3rd quarter, Notre Dame is just pounding the crap out of Michigan, It dawned on me that she was right. My salvation will last forever football will not. 4 hours for Notre Dame and possibly 4 more for the Colts, 8 hours of Bible reading, i can handle that, my relationship with Christ well grow so much stronger, who knows maybe God will bless Notre Dame because of my obedience, just a thought.

worship in heaven

I sat in church today watching my daughter and several other children dancing around during worship time at church, and it made me think, "Is this what Heaven is like, is this how all the children that have passed are worshiping GOD in Heaven, is our baby worshiping in heaven right now at this very moment while my daughter is worshiping the same GOD on earth."

Jordan

God's blessings are so marvelous, but sometimes the blessings are only for a short while. We had a baby due today, one week after we found out he was coming, he was gone. There is no time in heaven, but there is way too much here on earth. While we have to wait days, weeks, months, even years to see our child(which ever the Lord allows) our child will never really know what waiting is.